After 14 years of pure pain. I finally decided to give you an obituary. Well CeeJay it never gets easier. The pain doesn't stop, for years i lived my life miserable and angry because i couldnt understand why you. I wished it was me for many years heck I still do wish it was me. I miss the peace you brought. Never a Crybaby i believe you thought i was pretty entertaining. I miss just watching RIO because i just knew that was your favorite movie. It’s empty in my heart. I try to find happiness but nothing brings me joy, so i try and create it. Your beautiful soft skin that angelic face i miss more than anything else the world. Mommy is so sorry i wasn’t able to save or protect you. I’m sorry we couldn’t get away fast enough. But thru it all. GOD has been my shinning light. GOD helped me move passed the why? Because the why is not important, the why’s only brought, unexplained pain. The love we and time we shared is the most important thing in the world. You up there with the big GOD. I know you are protecting me. What I would do right now to just smell that baby breath. You was taking away from me before i heard you say mommie. That’s what hurts. I don’t know what you would sound like. But I am more then a conqueror.

Roman 8:37-38

Psalms 34:18

Matthew 5:4

Isaiah 41:10

Psalms 147:3

Thank you GOD for the time you allowed me to be a mother! May God bring me peace Inshallah. We so much love momma